Haunted By Anonymous

Voices ask, “How are you?”

I smile and say okay.

I’m to proud to say I’m haunted

In my work and in my play.

Haunted by a ghost

Or haunted by a dream

Surrounded by my thoughts

Always analysing what they mean

Last week I decided “It’s time”

To move my life along

Stop seeing you in shadows

And hearing you in song

I went back to the place

Where first I knew you owned my heart

To try and make new memories

Or at least to try and start

But you were in the shadows,

I saw you in the lights,

You were on the streets and in my head,

You consumed me there all night

And though I try to move on

I guess I stepped too soon

When I let another touch me

On that warm night in June

For when I closed my eyes

You were everywhere

And voices screamed within my head

“You can’t, coz She’s not there”

And as the flogger hit my back

The rhythm, beat so slow

Tears sprang fast into my eyes

Threatened then to flow

For it happened in our corner

Where I knelt at your feet

With cuffs wrapped round my wrists

As you watched from the seat

I left the club so quickly

Trying to out run my thoughts

And reached out to my friends

For the comfort that I sought

Their words that night held me

Close in their loving care

Which has to be enough these days

Because I know you can’t be there

So when voices ask “How are you?”

I’ll smile and say “okay”

While the memories which haunt me

Come less and less each day