Changes by Anonymous

I have never written a confession before so please forgive me if I do not catch the right tone. This is to a lady here who has been a part of me even before i really knew who i was. Her name, I am not sure whether the protocol is to tell or not but I would just like to give you an example of how much she means to me.
The date was May 2010 I had started to explore my submissive tendencies and I had begun to come to the Dominion a few weeks earlier. Indeed I had enjoyed watching the trials and listening to the chat but still not really sure whether I was a true submissive boy or just kinky.
I saw this wonderful Lady come in swirling twirling full of fun dancing in the Dominion. I greeted her as some of the other ladies had shown me how to do. She responded, kindly but with a firmness in her tone. I remember the words i said to her the first words after a good mannered greeting was "you can dance on me anytime". How inappropriate i thought, how poor for a Lady such as this. Thinking about it now i feel ashamed that i could be so crass.
She laughed and we chatted and that next day we spoke on Voice, when she addressed me as Boy my heart nearly stopped, we chatted and chatted about jobs and i told her my real life situation,  married been with my wife 12 years no kids and happy just exploring.
Night after night we chatted talked Mistress played with me on voice and on cam and she slowly started to introduce me to this wonderful world. After a few weeks she collared me and it was midsummers eve we stayed up all night just talking and it was a most amazing experience.
From here on in we played on cam and grew closer and closer I felt a change in my expectations from life and an ache when i was unable to serve her.
Slowly but surely and with Mistress' control it was apparent that i was a sub and that she had brought this out in me. The pace quickened we made a blog, used the phone tasks daily all to illustrate her control and my obedience.
One summers evening i was on a course in London we were speaking on the phone and then right out of the blue she ordered me to attend my first ever real life Fem Dom interaction. From there i was invited to a club and I asked my Mistress for permission to go which she granted. She cared for me and protected me her property.  I did decline to play with the ladies there based on my Mistresses guidance and her knowledge.
As Mistress was controlling me in my real life too things started to go a little bit haywire. My Father became ill with cancer I started to visit him every evening and most of the weekends and this started to put a strain on my marriage. My wifes Father was also ill and had spent some time in hospital so we were living separate lives. Throughout this time i would always endeavor to keep in touch with my Mistress whether an e mail a call or a message in second life. I felt her presence with me. My Fathers condition deterriorated and he was admitted to a specialist cancer hospital I went daily sometimes with my wife sometimes alone but always with my Mistress in my heart. He was given the last rites and for three weeks he survived by this time i was off work and there just waiting, hoping. The end came and i told my Mistress again she was so complimentary said i had been a very brave boy and good to my mother and my wife. what an amazing lady my Mistress really is she could make anyone feel better.
My wifes father died shortly afterwards it was at this point i spoke to my Mistress and she helped me. I loved my wife she told me to help her care for her and to be there for her at this difficult time. As i did so and we became close again we both realised that we were just different people. the past two years had really taken its toll on our relationship and it was not strong enough.
Amicably we have decided to end it. While my wife still shares the same house for financial reasons we are finished as a couple. I treid to cut myself off from everything to go through things was i really a submissive. Regretably i stayed away from my Mistress i do not know why when she was the one person who had guided me been so strong and kind to me. For that i am truly sorry and although i did want to serve you i thought it best to stay away. A decision i realise is wrong.
So this is my confession about how a wonderful Mistress, Lady and human came into my life. I know she is wonderful as many of you do here. I am now a single submissive hoping to show his Mistress how much she means to him. First though i wanted to tell you all why this Lady makes my heart jump, my head think.  Her control courses through my veins. She is truly amazing and from that moment when my knees first hit the grass at the dominion i knew.
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Whatever happens in 2012 and if a submissive boy may have a want it is this. I want my Mistress to be the happiest person alive.
No disguise can long conceal love where it exists, or long feign it where it is lacking'

Her choice her control my obedience.