Letter To Dominion by Jeannie

Dear Misses, Ladies, slaves and the sub of Dominon FemDom,
this is my third time that I participate in the event "Femdom Confession."
The first time I attended, I did not say anything because I did not understand what it was, the title said it all... but I have never had the possibility to share emotions, secrets, poems, in front of so many people, the thing that struck me: no judges, no criticism.
Although I did not understand much in voice but It happened to hear some tremor in the sound of the voice, sometimes perceive the sensation that someone was even crying, I found it so exciting that I could not hold back tears in my eyes ...
I always put huge walls in front of my emotions and people, for fear of unpleasant surprises and we all know no one likes to receive any nasty surprises.
But that night I was reminded of the best days I spent in my second life.
I remembered a person who believed in me until the end.
I remembered that it's no use making scorched earth around.
So the second time I attended I wanted to share a poem for me so "intimate", which I dedicated to my first ex - Mistress in real life.
Today I am here not to share a poem or a secret, but there is no better time to dedicate, to each of you present and absent, this letter.
Maybe it's a bit early for this dedication ...
Seven months ago, I never imagined to be here at the Dominion to share all this.
For me it was a land with a name that instilled fear ... I was passing through, but I never lingered, because I had an extreme hardship because of communication ability.
I was wrong.
A person today would be proud of me if She knew where I spend most of the time of my second life, knowing that I closed a huge door of my past and continue to go on my way.
When I took the courage to try to spend more time at the Dominion, the first feeling was that I felt no loneliness or emptiness inside me, I did not expect to be accepted, welcomed ... despite my enormous difficulties.
Another fear I had when I communicated to some of my friends where I spent my time in sl, someone asked me, "and from when you speak English? ...." or here I was done brainwashed "Jeannie... be careful, be a good girl, there are very strict Ruling... don't do shits... Italians are not welcome..." a fear that has faded with the passing of days, if a person know how to behave politely she do it even if without recommendations ... but I was always excited from the phrase "the Dominants there are very strict" and what I've always tried, in part it is a need.
I felt in the sisterhood between the Mistresses and brotherhood among the slaves, sending security and serenity.
All the people who have helped me to this day I have always thanked in private, sometimes exceeding the emotions (when there is one person that I like i tell what I feel directly, always with a bit of embarrassment  ^_^).
It 'happened I can give the impressione that I want to try with all Miss, mine is not a hit on all, it's just that when I see a Miss that fascinates me, it strikes me, I can not stop myself, I go to charge, to create a minimum of bond, because I care and I want to keep the balance, I am very fond of friendship.
One thing that I didn't expected from myself, was my first arrest, it was already embarrassing not be successful in boot camp because I did not understand from where took the hud, despite of many indications.
If I were in another land or bdsm FemDom, I would never put naked without clothes in the first row in front of an audience of Misses and sub males, for me it is the most humiliating thing that exists, even if it is only my Avatar, I have always fought against this form of umiliation for me ... (The few times I found myself naked in front of all, there were more than five people ^ _ ^ and it was not me to undress, but forced by rlv functions controlled by the Mars Ring by my Domme).
I was comfortable (not to be naked, in RL my face was as red as a tomato when I approached the process), but I was put in a comfortable and secure position...
One thing that I found very beautiful from the group was the attitude of some subs, it was great, thanks to them I felt part of something.
I did not expected all these surprises, shares thoughts, outbursts and requests for help.

In conclusion I want to thank especially Miss Evangeline for giving me this opportunity to be "born again," Miss Dalia for the wonderful Italian support and very comforting, Miss Mo her sympathy and her italins jokes left in me always a sincere smile every day, Lady Miss Veronica one of the first with whom I shared good times and tied once, Miss Zarita  Miss Gabrielle, Miss Jolie, Miss Summer, Miss Nej, Lady Miyanu that i know them recently, but from accusations, send tp instead of request of friendship and make "permission" in a wrong way, we had very fun moments, Miss Tika for giving me a great honor to use her voice to the reading of my poetry and all the Misses and Ladies of the Dominion that it is an honor to know and see them at work in allowing me to learn some from the discussions about their experiences, each of them is an exceptional person.
I thank all the subs, I'm glad to be with you :).
I love you all sincerely.
Jeannie